UPDATE: Dreams!!!

Ooook!! So, I said I will start writing down my dreams again and I have. (Kinda, sorta) I forget to do it on the mornings where I'm too busy getting ready for work. Anyhoo, from what I have written in my journal (thats it in the picture above) and what I remember from the one's that I didn't written down, the main theme I"m noticing from my dreams is the ocean. Or a BIG body of water. Now, from my mom's friend who does dream interpretations sometimes, she said that water can sometimes represent water, but in this case I don't think the water in my dream means trouble.

I went to dreammoods.com, and typed in "Ocean" and it says:

Ocean
To see an ocean in your dream, represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of spiritual refreshment, tranquility and renewal. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. You have a positive outlook in life and are not limited by anything. If you are sailing across the ocean, then it signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage.

Hmmm....now I can definitely relate to this, because I have been feeling very "at peace with myself" lately. So, that could be the reason why I have sooo many dreams with the ocean or BIG bodies of water in it.

I wonder what happens if I actually jumped in it....(stay tuned)

"Dream a little Dream of me"

" A dream, is a wish...your heart makes." *record player screech noise* Well, I hope not!!

I know exactly what Cinderella was singing about, but my goodness, if any of MY dreams ever came true....that would be just awful. Anyhoo, I've been really curious about my dreams lately. It seems that I have very, very, very, odd dreams, while other people seem to have almost normal dreams. OR, people who are very good at interpreting dreams, knows the significance of their dreams, while I'm not sure what going to a house party in a tree has to do with my heart or reality!! I do try and interpret my dreams sometimes, by going to Dreammoods.com and typing in keywords, buuuttt....I feel like that website can only take me so far. *sigh* Maybe I'm trying to make something out of nothing and my dreams are just the essence of my crazy imagination and they have absolutely no significance what so ever. I did try and write down what I dreamed the night before in this super cute book that I have, but I felt like I was wasting my time and I stopped doing it. Hmmm....maybe I should start doing it again and see what happens.

Jinx!! *knocks on wood*

Have you ever felt like you were jinxed?? Well, for the past couple of days, thats how I felt!!

It all started with me and my cousin leaving Charleston Sunday to go back home. At first the drive was pretty uneventful, we were just driving and talking about random stuff...and then IT happened....my car made a funny noise and the check engine light came on. I am soo glad that my cousin was the one driving, because I would of panicked or something. But she pulled over to the side of the road and we both got out and popped the hood......we didn't know what to look for. *shrugs* But luckily a very nice guy stopped to help us and told us that it was the water pump that burst...ugh. But he stayed with us to make sure that everything was ok and that someone was coming to get us which was nice of him. Anyhoo, to speed up the story my uncle came alll the way out there to tow my car and take it back to Charleston to get fixed, while me and my cousin had a movie night at her apartment.

Now, I am extremely happy that my cousin was there with me....but then again...it was her THIRD time be in a car predicament this summer...???...Me and her mom agree that my cousin is not allowed in any of ours cars ever again.

And then, after all of that, I get home to a broken computer monitor *extra sad face* FML!! But luckily my mom was able to buy a new one....its really pretty too!!

Hmmm, now that I typed this all out, I realized even though those were "life stumbles," it all worked out in the end.

Relationships.....that is the title.

(I'm really in a blogging mood tonight)

Well, there's something I have been wondering about and it has been bugging me for a while....why are people so obsessed with my Singledom?? *giggles* But as I get older it seems to be a topic people (family) loves to bring up when they see me. No,I never had a boyfriend and No, I am not a lesbian are my usual responses to the questions the like to throw at me. And then when they ask me "Why????", I just shrug.

I think I shrug, because if I do answer the question, I would answer it with a deep meaningful answer and they still wouldn't understand. *shrugs*
Anyhoo, as I get older I'm beginning to understand more of why I choose to stay single

One reason would be that...well...I'm a little (ALOT) shy around men. Especially ones that I'm attracted to. Its hard to talk this over with my BFF because she has never had this problem with guys. I have a feeling she's been good with talking to guys since birth! But I'm getting better....a little....kinda. I mean, I just don't SEE enough guys in my daily life to actually have a conversation with. I know, I know....I should get out more. Don't worry....I've been starting to do that too! #win

Second reason....the few guys that do show interest in me....I'm just not into them. *shrugs* A lot of people might say I'm being picky, but I just can't seem to fake an emotion just because a guy is FINALLY interested in me. I just can't and I'm not going to. Because if I did that, he wouldn't see the real me and I would like for someone to see how goofy, silly, and weird I am in the beginning.

Finally....I think I have a fear of commitment. (screams) I have never been in a relationship and the older I get and the more I learn about who Letti is...I just dont' feel like being bothered. Or I think its just that being in a relationship is something that is unknown to me and I'm a little afraid of the unknown. But yet, I want to face it at the same time and see what it's about.

To sum up allll of this, I think my main problem is that everyone is rushing me to be in a relationship whether its a good or not!! I know there is someone or someone's (hehehe) out there for me, I just want to enjoy my life until I meet them.

Is that so hard to ask?

Vision/Goal/Inspirational Board...Update!!!

(I should try logging on here more often)

Anyhoo, well here is my semi-finished Board!! Look how fancy it is now!! *giggles* Ok, well it's not that fancy, but I try to use the creative part of my brain a lot more these days. Especially, now that classes are over and I have a lot of free time to think and be creative....or take a nap.



Ok, so here it is and my flowers!! I got all those flowers from the craft store that I work at. No, I don't go around yanking flower heads off of their plastic stems...sometimes...but these are what "fell" off and have been collected by the Floral department manager and thrown in a box. Of course I couldn't let her just throw them away....so I decided they should and WILL become a hair accessory someday!! THIS I SWEAR!!! (said in dramatic voice)



Next is my little gold Piggy bank!! Hehehehe!! I also got this from my store...when it went 80% off. But I always had my eyes on it and I was sooo happy when nobody bought him and he was marked down.....and then he was alll mine. You probably can't tell in the picture, but I spilled nail polish remover on him a couple of months ago and now he's a gold pig with silver tarnished scars...ah well.




And finally my Passport holder!!!! TA-DA!!!! Is my passport in there you say?? Nope! *womp womp* I hope to acquire my passport sometime in the near future and I can't wait to get it. But in the meantime I'll just enjoy looking at my holder til then.

My board is not fully complete because I feel like something is missing from it. I don't know what it is, but when I do, I'll make sure to let you know. :D

Good-Bye Crawling, Hello Walking!!

Well, I said I was going to make some changes and I did!! Here they are!!

1. I actually went to a Professor for help on a paper. Haven't done that since high school, but I placed my pride aside and went to my Professor for help with my writing. I am sooo glad that I did!! She helped me create a clear thesis, she helped me with topic sentences and everything!! I am soo proud of myself. Yay Me!!

2. I've finally spoke with the Internship advisor to help find an internship for the Fall and I'm super excited and nervous at the same time, but I know I'll be alright. ;D

3. Finally!! To obtain 1 and 2, I have gained alot of confidence in the last couple of months!! (round of applause) Thank you, thank you!! And I would like to thank my Spring Break!! Seriously!!

It was my first trip without my mom, just me and my BFF, so I was extremely nervous but it was one of the best times of my LIFE!! I met soo many awesome people, whether they worked on the ship or were my fellow Spring Breakers!! I did things I thought I never do (nothing X-rated I assure you), but like, I did Karaoke and danced with sooo many people!! Usually, I'm really reserved, but I decided to let everything go and just enjoy myself, and maaaann did I.


Sooo, thats it so far, but I'm not worried....because I know there's more awesome stuff to come!! whoohoo!!

Goal Board: Under construction

Ok so here's my goal board.....yes....it is not very pretty...but I'm working on it. And I already chose some quotes and stuff to stick on it too!!

"I have an Abundance of Wealth, Health and Happiness" I like to say this over and over in my mind. I'm trying to always have positive thoughts, so that I can give off positive vibes, so that I can have peace in my life. Because people sure do like to try and take that peace away!! But I'm not going to let them!!

"Sleep is like the unicorn-it is rumored to exist, but I doubt I will see any" - anonymous. This quote made me giggle because being in college.......you have a lot of loooonngg nights. Believe me!

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. - Ralph Waldo Emerson. I love this quote, because I think it fits me best!! My family said I always marched to my own beat and I quite agree! ;D

"Love isn't finding a perfect person. Its seeing an Imperfect person perfectly." - Sam Keen.I like this poem, because I hate it when people try to mold someone into someone else!! Why can't they be great, just the way they are?!?!?

So I kinda summed up a little bit of me into 4 quotes. Now isn't that nice? :D